Closing This Chapter

May has been such an exciting month in our household. We celebrated 2 years of marriage, the start of the third and final trimester and this upcoming week, our 7 year dating anniversary. That is a lot of excitement for this mama!

With all of these milestones hitting so fast, I can’t help but reflect on the last 7 years of it just being the two of us. My husband is my best friend, he is my person. Now I don’t say that just because he’s my husband and that’s how you should feel, I say that and feel it in every ounce of my body. Before we even decided to date, we spent a few years just being friends. We talked daily and about everything. Good day, tell AJ. Bad day, tell AJ. Frustrated with the world, he knew it. Something big happened in my life, it wasn’t long before I was filling him in on the details. Before he was my boyfriend, he was my person.

Now I’m not trying to upsale this relationship or say ours is better than the next, that’s not where I’m going at all. Believe me, we’ve been through the muddy waters that most relationships go through too. But these milestones have my heart hurting with such a bittersweet feeling and reflecting back on our friendship, relationship, and marriage. For the last 7 years, it’s just been the two of us. We’ve been able to give each other 100% of ourselves and 100% of our attention to the other. We grew up from the crazy, wild kids we once were, to the adults and soon-to-be parents we are today. We grew up and figured life out, hand in hand. Along with that, I couldn’t be more proud of this life we have built together.

I am overwhelmed with the bittersweet feeling that dedicating everything we have to each other is soon coming to an end. In 10 weeks or less, life as we know it is going to drastically change. While I am sure once we find our footing, we are going to rock parenthood, this huge step is feeling a little scary. Very soon, we won’t be able to give each other that 100% because we will be exhausting ourselves with figuring out this new parenting gig and soaking up all the precious, special and fragile moments that are to come.

Don’t misunderstand me, I am so incredibly anxious for our parenthood journey to begin and dream about our lives as a family of three daily but for now, I am soaking in every single minute we have left in this chapter before it’s time to turn the page and start writing the next, which I truly believe will be the best one yet. With anything in life, closing one chapter and starting the next always feels so bittersweet. So here’s to making every minute of the next 10ish weeks count before our sweet girl enters the world and completely changes our lives.